I am such a horrible blogger, Benedict Cumberbatch kinda terrifies me, and other revelations since my last post
OK I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR ALMOST 100 DAYS!!!! But things have been chaotic because….
- MY SHERLOCK HOLMES PAPER GOT ACCEPTED INTO A CONFERENCE!!!!
- Second semester. End of story.
- I may or may not have forgotten my password to this account. Whoops. Not one of my shining moments…
But let’s talk about probably the coolest thing that has happened in my short life: I’m officially presenting at my first academic conference! My paper on Sherlock Holmes fan works (which I have been documenting my progress on since I started classes last semester) was one of the first papers accepted (or at least I think it was since I’m basing everything off of confirmation numbers). I am so pumped for this experience! But, with that being said, my school denied my request for funding and everything for the trip (my flight, hotel, etc.) is coming out of pocket. I’ve started a GoFundMe, so if you could share the link or possibly donate a couple of dollars towards my campaign, that would be lovely. Thank you ❤
So kinda going off of that…
My family came down to visit me at school for the Easter weekend (which was wonderful), and my brother asked me what I would do if Benedict Cumberbatch came to my presentation and wanted to talk to me about it afterwards. I told him that I would be terrified.
“Psh. Yeah right. Terrified of meeting one of your favorite actors who you not only find attractive, but a fascinating person who you would kill for an opportunity to sit down and have a conversation with? I don’t believe it.”
But here’s the thing: I’m not terrified of meeting him.
I’m terrified of letting him down. Or anyone, for that matter.
I have put so much work into this paper so far (and after the semester is over, I’m going to be putting a lot more in as well), that I have a lot of people rooting for me. I’m fortunate for this support, but I don’t want to let them down. Failure has always been one of my biggest fears, and I don’t want it to let it get the best of me. Out of anyone I could be presenting this to, Benedict (as well as anyone involved with the show, for that matter) knows the source material as well as I do. For me, that’s intimidating because he knows a lot of what I’m basing my argument off of. I don’t want this to fall short of expectations.
I shouldn’t really be fretting about this, but I’ve tried to get other cast/production crew members to retweet my GoFundMe link so I can hopefully raise the money to go on the trip. If they’ve seen the link, they know when and where the presentation is and what I’m arguing. Which means that there is that slim chance that they’ll be there.
But that’s not going to happen, right?
So, uh, you know how I said that I’d try to update here more often since Christmas is over and I can’t use school as an excuse for another 2 weeks? Yeah.. sorry about that…I’m not dead! Don’t worry! I just had things to do, people to see, places to go, etc. etc. etc.
Now, where was I… Oh yes! Christmas! Merry Belated Christmas, everyone! I hope Santa left you lots of wonderful goodies under your tree (or, if you don’t celebrate Christmas, here’s hoping that your respective holiday was wonderful and you received anything that you wanted/needed)! Personally, I had a wonderful holiday. I got a nice copy of Gray’s Anatomy (the textbook, not the show), some new clothing and shoes and a pair of earrings by a designer that I love (my mom went to high school with her, and I’ve gotten some of her pieces for Christmas the past couple of years. They’re so funky. I’ll post pics later). My brother got me a necklace of Tony Stark’s arc reactor from the Iron Man (which, being the nerd that I am, is now one of my new favorite pieces of jewelry), and I got him 2 books that he hasn’t put down since.
Funny story time (well, I think it’s a funny story)! A couple days before Christmas, a friend of mine from high school tagged me and another friend in this picture since all three of us are fans of Doctor Who. I commented on it saying that I wouldn’t mind finding Matt Smith (who’s in the picture) or Benedict Cumberbatch (who plays Sherlock Holmes in Sherlock; I’ve mentioned him before when talking about my massive paper I did and the surveys that I sent out) underneath my Christmas tree since I love both of their shows, think they’re fantastic actors and, well, I find them visually appealing (don’t judge). Conversations occur within the comments of the picture, yadda yadda, this isn’t the funny part.
So fast-forward to Christmas morning: on top of my little section of presents is an 11″ cardboard standee of Matt Smith as The Doctor. I go to unwrap the gifts I gave my brother, and, lo and behold, one of them is the Star Trek: Khan comic book with Benedict Cumberbatch on the cover. So, technically, I did get Matt Smith and Benedict Cumberbatch for Christmas ;D.
It’s hard to believe that tomorrow’s New Years Eve already… I feel like we just started 2013 not that long ago. It’s crazy…
So, in honor of the New Year, which brings SEASON 3 OF SHERLOCK FINALLY (!!!), here’s a little pic that inspired the title of today’s (tonight’s?) post. Tumblr user ShockingBlankets has, in my opinion, some of the cutest Sherlock art, and has an entire series of gifs titled #NotDead, where Holmes reveals the fact that he is alive to Watson. You have to click on the picture for the gif to play (yay technology). So, enjoy!
And….. FINALS ARE OVER! Yay! Thanks for being patient with me as I wrapped things up for the semester! Let’s check in with a couple of things I’ve mentioned over the past couple of months:
- The paper I was writing on BBC’s Sherlock: That’s finished! The paper itself was 17 full pages (double-spaced), and, with the bibliography and abstract that my professor wanted us to include, it turned out to be a 21-page document. I am so happy with how it turned out, and, especially with Season 3 coming out on January 19th (or January 1st if you’re one of the lucky ducks who lives in the UK), a lot of what I discussed (fan fictions and communities) will be highlighted in the media. So, if what I submitted looks good, I might make some edits, further my research, and *hopefully* get it published in a journal!
- The surveys I sent out as part of the 21-page paper: Out of the 9 I sent out, I only got one back, and that was because it was a wrong address. I’m taking that as a sign that the addresses I found on the internet are relatively accurate and I’m hoping that I’ll hear back from at least one person eventually. In a perfect world, it would be awesome if some of the people called me and did the whole interview over the phone, or, better yet, flew me out to London so I could do it in person. Will this happen? Probably not.
Do I care? Nope! Not at all!
- The guy I spent an entire post ranting about: Nothing new on this front. Frankly, I’m not worrying about it. If it’s meant to happen, it’ll happen. There are more important things in my life right now that I have to focus my energy on.
Well, that about sums it up. It’s currently snowing, so I hope it doesn’t lay on the roads so I can get to my haircut safely (I’m not very experienced with snow driving).
Happy beginning of December! Wow, it’s weird thinking I started college only 4 months ago… Where has the time gone? I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving filled with lots of family and great food! I know I loved seeing everyone back home, even if it was just for a few days.
So, to continue with the series (which I hope everyone’s enjoying), I thought I’d share some of my favorite quotes.
For When I’m at a Road Block:
“When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.”~Sherlock Holmes (The Sign of the Four).
For me, this kinda demonstrates that nothing is truly impossible. There’s always a small chance that anything can happen, and, sometimes, you just have to hold on to that glimmer of hope.
When I Need Reminded Why I Want To Go To Medical School:
“You ‘never interfere in the affairs of other peoples or planets’ unless there’s children crying”~Amelia Pond (Doctor Who, The Beast Below)
This was actually the basis for my one college application essay. I’ve wanted to go into medicine since I was 4 (yes, really. I’ve known since that early of an age that I’ve wanted to be a doctor. I have photos to prove it, too), and I’ve always loved working with kids. Since I primarily want to work with Type 1 Diabetics (who are typically diagnosed as children), I’ve said that, basically, I want to answer their cries.
When Life Just Seems Hard:
“Don’t Dream It. Be It”~Rocky Horror Picture Show
Sometimes I just need that little bit of a push in order to remember that I can be whatever I want to be. Nothing’s Impossible. You just have to work for it.
When You Need To Smile:
“Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
Rhyming is hard
Sorry for the lack of posts recently. College has been, well, college. Homework, projects, and all sorts of fun stuff like that have officially taken over my life. But I have some time before my next class, so I figured I’d write a quick post 🙂
Disclaimer: This is going to be a giant fan girl moment. If you don’t care about my fangirl-ness, then don’t read. I won’t be offended.
Remember how I posted about sending surveys to celebrities involved with adaptations of Sherlock Holmes? Well, thanks to the magic of Tumblr and Twitter, I saw that someone who sent Andrew Scott (Moriarty on the BBC series) a somewhat similar survey got a response from him! She said that it took her between a month and 2 months to hear a response. Since today is the 2-week anniversary of me putting the letters in the mail, I hopefully may have a completed survey by the time I actually have to submit the final paper for a grade! Also, if Andrew is known to do these things, who’s to say that the other people I sent surveys to won’t?!
He also sent the girl an autograph, which, if I got one, would be my first non-musician autograph! (I have things signed by “Weird Al”, Fitz and the Tantrums, A Great Big World, and 2Cellos, and from parts of the Broadway casts of Spider-Man: Turn Off the Dark and American Idiot, but nothing from any TV/Film actors).
So here’s hoping that maybe, just maybe, I will be able to throw in some first-hand quotes from the big names 😀
Remember how I talked about those surveys I was sending out for my Sherlock Holmes project? Well, they’re in the mail now. I know I really shouldn’t be, but I’m nervous about them. I love how they turned out, and I’m proud to say that I did this, but that doesn’t help. I think it’s the fact that I can’t personally go and hand everyone a copy and say “hi I’m a student working on this project, and I would love it if you could fill this out for me” and then see if they’re interested.
Well, I could do that, but I’d go broke from the plane tickets, hotels, bail payments for alleged stalking, etc.
I think the part that bothers me the most is that everything’s out of my control.
I’m not a control freak or anything, but I like to know what’s going on.
I can’t even guarantee that over half of the people I sent surveys to will be able to send back the surveys, since apparently Americans can’t pre-pay for postage for something to be sent back from London (I included self-addressed envelopes with everything and, at least for the USA-bound ones, I pre-paid for return postage)! Gotta love living in America, where we currently have no government! But, that’s a rant for another day and another blog post…
So. Now the waiting game begins. Fingers crossed that I hear something and add that little bit of special-ness (is that a word?) to my paper.
I’ve always been a fan of stuff. Elementary school saw me with my first celebrity crush (Zac Efron), while middle school was filled with everything Jonas Brothers (who were my first and so far only concert (don’t judge)). High school began with a very short love of Twilight (the books were kinda good, but the movies? not so much), and then, in my senior year, I found Doctor Who, Sherlock, and The Avengers.
However, in all of my love of things fan-ish, I haven’t had much experience with one thing:
Up until now, I have sent 1 piece of fan mail in my life. I was 13, and it was to the Jonas Brothers. I heard nothing back (no shocker there). Now, even though I’m older and (supposedly) more mature, I’m getting ready to send out a very large amount of fan mail.
Well, it’s not really fan mail. It’s actually for a project I have in my writing class. My class centers around media fandoms, and, by the end of the semester, I have to write a 15+ page paper on some form of fandom. I thought it would be fun to look at the history of the Sherlock Holmes fandom, starting with the original books and short stories and ending with the modern movies and TV shows. One day, I thought, “You know what would be cool? If I could get an interesting quote by Benedict Cumberbatch (who plays Holmes on the BBC show) about his experiences with the fandom! Wait-why stop with Ben? I wonder what the other people involved with the show think about the fans!” One thing led to another, and now I’m writing and mailing out a bunch of surveys for people involved with not only the BBC show, but the CBS show Elementary and the Sherlock Holmes movies with Robert Downey Jr. and Jude Law.
The phrase “I hope I hear back from them” is an understatement of what I’m feeling right now, and I haven’t even printed out the letters and surveys yet! I really, really, REALLY want this to work. And it’s not even because I’m one of those obsessed fans who wants to parade around the world screaming “I JUST GOT A SIGNATURE FROM A FAMOUS PERSON LOOK AT ME I’M AMAZEBALLS!!!” before fainting. I honestly think the people I’m contacting could provide some fascinating insight into the modern fandom. Plus, how many people can say, “Benedict Cumberbatch and/or Martin Freeman helped me with a project while I was a freshman in college”? Not many, I can tell you that much.
Fingers, toes, arms, and, well, anything that is crossable is crossed right now that this works and I get at least one survey back.