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I am such a horrible blogger, Benedict Cumberbatch kinda terrifies me, and other revelations since my last post

OK I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR ALMOST 100 DAYS!!!! But things have been chaotic because….

  2. Second semester. End of story.
  3. I may or may not have forgotten my password to this account. Whoops. Not one of my shining moments…

But let’s talk about probably the coolest thing that has happened in my short life: I’m officially presenting at my first academic conference! My paper on Sherlock Holmes fan works (which I have been documenting my progress on since I started classes last semester) was one of the first papers accepted (or at least I think it was since I’m basing everything off of confirmation numbers).  I am so pumped for this experience! But, with that being said, my school denied my request for funding and everything for the trip (my flight, hotel, etc.) is coming out of pocket.  I’ve started a GoFundMe, so if you could share the link or possibly donate a couple of dollars towards my campaign, that would be lovely. Thank you ❤

So kinda going off of that…

My family came down to visit me at school for the Easter weekend (which was wonderful), and my brother asked me what I would do if Benedict Cumberbatch came to my presentation and wanted to talk to me about it afterwards.  I told him that I would be terrified.

“Psh. Yeah right. Terrified of meeting one of your favorite actors who you not only find attractive, but a fascinating person who you would kill for an opportunity to sit down and have a conversation with? I don’t believe it.”

But here’s the thing: I’m not terrified of meeting him.

I’m terrified of letting him down.  Or anyone, for that matter.

I have put so much work into this paper so far (and after the semester is over, I’m going to be putting a lot more in as well), that I have a lot of people rooting for me.  I’m fortunate for this support, but I don’t want to let them down.  Failure has always been one of my biggest fears, and I don’t want it to let it get the best of me.  Out of anyone I could be presenting this to, Benedict (as well as anyone involved with the show, for that matter) knows the source material as well as I do.  For me, that’s intimidating because he knows a lot of what I’m basing my argument off of.  I don’t want this to fall short of expectations.

I shouldn’t really be fretting about this, but I’ve tried to get other cast/production crew members to retweet my GoFundMe link so I can hopefully raise the money to go on the trip.  If they’ve seen the link, they know when and where the presentation is and what I’m arguing. Which means that there is that slim chance that they’ll be there.


But that’s not going to happen, right?


#Not Dead

So, uh, you know how I said that I’d try to update here more often since Christmas is over and I can’t use school as an excuse for another 2 weeks? Yeah.. sorry about that…I’m not dead! Don’t worry! I just had things to do, people to see, places to go, etc. etc. etc.

Now, where was I… Oh yes! Christmas! Merry Belated Christmas, everyone!  I hope Santa left you lots of wonderful goodies under your tree (or, if you don’t celebrate Christmas, here’s hoping that your respective holiday was wonderful and you received anything that you wanted/needed)!  Personally, I had a wonderful holiday.  I got a nice copy of Gray’s Anatomy (the textbook, not the show), some new clothing and shoes and a pair of earrings by a designer that I love (my mom went to high school with her, and I’ve gotten some of her pieces for Christmas the past couple of years.  They’re so funky. I’ll post pics later).  My brother got me a necklace of Tony Stark’s arc reactor from the Iron Man (which, being the nerd that I am, is now one of my new favorite pieces of jewelry), and I got him 2 books that he hasn’t put down since.

Funny story time (well, I think it’s a funny story)! A couple days before Christmas, a friend of mine from high school tagged me and another friend in this picture since all three of us are fans of Doctor Who996087_717357951630444_440464208_n I commented on it saying that I wouldn’t mind finding Matt Smith (who’s in the picture) or Benedict Cumberbatch (who plays Sherlock Holmes in Sherlock; I’ve mentioned him before when talking about my massive paper I did and the surveys that I sent out) underneath my Christmas tree since I love both of their shows, think they’re fantastic actors and, well, I find them visually appealing (don’t judge).  Conversations occur within the comments of the picture, yadda yadda, this isn’t the funny part.

So fast-forward to Christmas morning: on top of my little section of presents is an 11″ cardboard standee of Matt Smith as The Doctor.  I go to unwrap the gifts I gave my brother, and, lo and behold, one of them is the Star Trek: Khan comic book with Benedict Cumberbatch on the cover.  So, technically, I did get Matt Smith and Benedict Cumberbatch for Christmas ;D.

It’s hard to believe that tomorrow’s New Years Eve already… I feel like we just started 2013 not that long ago.  It’s crazy…

So, in honor of the New Year, which brings SEASON 3 OF SHERLOCK FINALLY (!!!), here’s a little pic that inspired the title of today’s (tonight’s?) post. Tumblr user ShockingBlankets has, in my opinion, some of the cutest Sherlock art, and has an entire series of gifs titled #NotDead, where Holmes reveals the fact that he is alive to Watson. You have to click on the picture for the gif to play (yay technology). So, enjoy!


You Guys Spoil Me…

You Guys Spoil Me...

Really. You do.
I thought I’d share my stats. I’ve had hits on this blog every day except for one over the past month. I’m still in shock. Thank you guys 🙂 You really don’t know how special this makes me feel.



A Few of My Favorite Things Pt. 4: Not My Words

Happy beginning of December!  Wow, it’s weird thinking I started college only 4 months ago… Where has the time gone? I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving filled with lots of family and great food!  I know I loved seeing everyone back home, even if it was just for a few days.

So, to continue with the series (which I hope everyone’s enjoying), I thought I’d share some of my favorite quotes.

For When I’m at a Road Block: 

“When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.”~Sherlock Holmes (The Sign of the Four).

For me, this kinda demonstrates that nothing is truly impossible.  There’s always a small chance that anything can happen, and, sometimes, you just have to hold on to that glimmer of hope.

When I Need Reminded Why I Want To Go To Medical School:

“You ‘never interfere in the affairs of other peoples or planets’ unless there’s children crying”~Amelia Pond (Doctor Who, The Beast Below)

This was actually the basis for my one college application essay.  I’ve wanted to go into medicine since I was 4 (yes, really.  I’ve known since that early of an age that I’ve wanted to be a doctor. I have photos to prove it, too), and I’ve always loved working with kids.  Since I primarily want to work with Type 1 Diabetics (who are typically diagnosed as children), I’ve said that, basically, I want to answer their cries.

When Life Just Seems Hard:

“Don’t Dream It. Be It”~Rocky Horror Picture Show

Sometimes I just need that little bit of a push in order to remember that I can be whatever I want to be.  Nothing’s Impossible.  You just have to work for it.

When You Need To Smile:

“Roses are Red

Violets are Blue

Rhyming is hard

I’m Batman”~Unknown

I don’t think I need to say anything else.  Have, a good week, everyone! I’ll leave you all with this gem. Image

A Few of My Favorite Things Pt. 3: Books!

Happy Monday! Well, it’s still Monday here (it’s 11:50 at night!)…

I like to read.  Like, a lot.  So….

Favorite Series: Definitely Harry Potter.  I read the first one back in 2003 (Wow, is that really 10 years ago? That’s insane), and I have read everyone at least once.  Deathly Hallows was started and finished in less than 48 hours (I am proud of that), and I have read it too many times to count.  They have given me something to bond with people over (like my college roommates, since we all enjoy the series).  Also, if you haven’t seen them already, Team StarKid does an AMAZING parody musical (A Very Potter Musical!)

Favorite Non-Fiction Book: This also qualifies as “The Freakiest Book I Have Ever Read in the History of Ever,” but I do love Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs.  The things he describes in this book are beyond messed up, but you can’t stop reading.  I read this in one sitting over the summer, and I want to read it again (my copy is sitting at home on my dresser right now).  Burroughs also has other books out (a few of which I have read and enjoyed, despite the freakiness).

What I’m Reading Right Now: Currently, I have challenged myself to read all of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle’s Sherlock Holmes stories before the end of the school year.  I love them, but I haven’t had as much time to sit down and read them as I would like.  But, with Thanksgiving break almost upon us, Hopefully I’ll be able to meet this goal!

What I Want To Read Next: Well, to quote Maud Casey, “I was born with a reading list I will never finish.”  There are so many books that I want to read but don’t have the time to.  Some of them include Insurgent and Allegiant by Veronica Roth (the sequels to Divergentwhich I highly recommend), Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein, and the Lord of the Rings series (which I have started so many times, and just got bored with part of the way into the first book).

Well. That’s all I have for today!  Feel free to post your favorite books down there! I love hearing what everyone enjoys 🙂

A Few Of My Favorite Things pt. 2: Films

Look, Ma! I’m actually attempting to keep up with a series I’m starting!

Today I figured I’d do a nice transition from music into movies. Shall we begin?

Last movie I watched: Technically, it was The Rocky Horror Picture Show since one of our campus theater groups did a version where they acted it out while the actual movie was projected behind them (it was a phenomenal performance).  But the last movie I actually sat down and watched was part of Inglorious Basterds.  We didn’t finish it (it’s on my to-do list), but what we saw was very good.

What I desperately want to watch: This list is embarrassingly long. But my top two three four right now are Star Trek: Into Darkness, The Fifth Estate, Iron Man 3 and Thor: The Dark World.  I am a huge sci-fi geek (hence STID), and I just thought TFE looked really good.  As for IM3 and Thor, I absolutely LOVE comic book movies, and these are the first Marvel movies that I haven’t seen in theaters.

What I can’t wait to see once it comes out: Sticking with my love of comic books, Captain America: The Winter Soldier is near the top of the list.  As is the 50th anniversary special of Doctor Who, The Day of the Doctorwhich I am deeming as a movie just because it’s over an hour and will be shown in theaters.

All-Time Favorite Movie. Ever. Ever. EVER.: Without a doubt, my favorite movie that I bought specifically to bring with me to college, is Monty Python and the Holy Grail.  Why? BECAUSE IT’S MONTY PYTHON! Who doesn’t love British humor? Plus, you can quote it in so many situations!  Person ticks you off? “Your mother was a hamster and your father smells like elderberries!”  Disgusting bug in the bathroom? “Fetch the holy hand grenade!!” You get hurt doing something? “It’s only a flesh wound!”  AND PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND THE REFERENCES!

So, does anyone out there in internet-land have any other movie suggestions?

I Have Guy Issues. But That’s Not New.

So this is another one of my “I’m going to rant about my insecurities and lack of guts” posts. So feel free to keep scrolling past. I won’t be offended.

This Saturday, we’re having a Gatsby-themed dance on campus. Guess who has two thumbs and doesn’t have a date? THIS GIRL! *points at self* That puts the total at 5 dances that I haven’t had a date to, plus countless other events I haven’t gone with a guy to.

It’s not like I don’t TRY to get to know the guys I find myself falling for. Like the song says, “Breaking my back just to know your name.” I attempt to start conversations with them, whether it be in person (when I actually see them) or on Facebook (when you can’t talk to them in person, like what happened with me this summer. I’ll vent about this story then). But, just my luck, I never see the guy(s) I like (so I can’t talk face to face) and, if I try to talk to them over the internet, they rarely respond! It’s aggravating!

Want proof of my luck? Take the guy I fell for at orientation: I met him at the first event. He was literally the first guy I met (I had already met a couple of girls). We were in the same small group, and, just because I knew nobody, I sat down next to him. We chatted about the stereotypical small-talk topics, and, when the actual thing started, they had us stand up. First words out of my mouth: “HOLY CRAP YOU’RE TALL!” He was over 6′ tall, and I was just there, me and all of my 5′ 5″ shortness. So, we got to know each other over the next 3 days, and I found out that we liked a lot of the same things (he was into musicals and a lot of the same bands as me, even some of the ones nobody at home had ever heard of). When we left for the summer, we friended each other on Facebook and I started talking to him the one night online (since we weren’t going to be seeing each other again until move-in at the end of August). We had a really good conversation, and I thought “Hey, I might be able to keep chatting and hang out with him once we’re both in school.” Well, that idea kinda died after that conversation. I messaged him a couple days later when it appeared he was on, and no response. Tried again a couple weeks later: nothing. Tried once again closer to move-in: A response filled with a whole lot of NOTHING. Then, we moved in, and I figured “Hey. We’re in the same dorm building, I’ll be bound to see him and chat with him!”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no. Between the end of August and about mid-October, I could have probably counted the days I had seen him on one hand. And it gets better! One time, I was getting over a stomach bug, so I looked like death walking. A couple of the times, I just looked unattractive from coming straight home from my self-defense class. I just have not been able to talk to him in a normal context since orientation.

This is how I feel like it’s been for EVERY guy I have ever liked. Meet them. Fall for them. Get to know them. Try to talk to them. Never hear from them. Feel alone.

Sigh. Sorry for unloading this all on y’all. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I keep going through the same hoops, and I never get anywhere. I’m also starting to kinda fall for another guy, and I really don’t want to keep this trend up. If anyone out there has any advice, I would love to hear it!

Thanks, everyone.

A Few of My Favorite Things Pt. 1: Jams

Well.  It’s November, which means that stores officially have crossed over to Christmas territory.  So, in order to celebrate the occasion, I figured I’d start a series where maybe once a week I’ll share some of my favorite things.

Today’s topic: Music.  I have a very, um, interesting array of musical tastes, so let’s go!

What I’m listening to now:  Adagio for Tron by Daft Punk (because I have a weakness for movie scores)

Most Played Song on my iTunes: Love Interruption by James Wolpert (yes, this was originally recorded by Jack White, but I love this version so much more.  Plus, James is from the area I grew up in, and I actually saw him in a community theater show when he was in high school)

Favorite Album: This is tough, but I love American Idiot by Green Day (because, well, it’s Green Day! They were supposed to have been my first big rock concert, but Billie Joe went to rehab and my show got canceled)

Favorite Playlist:  The 2013 Doctor Who Prom as performed by the BBC National Orchestra of Wales (again, going back to my love of film and tv scores.  Fun Fact: I listened to this live on the radio while mowing the lawn because I thought they were announcing the new doctor that night.  They didn’t, but now I have a dream to go see one of the Proms live (either DW or Sherlock, if they ever decide that it’s prom-worthy)

Favorite Song To Belt At Random Times Just Because I Can: This changes all the time.  I have been known to attempt to sing instrumental music (it’s not pretty).  But my all-time belting song would probably have to be this.  Admit it.  You know you have to sing ALL  of the parts to this. I don’t think it’s healthy to not feel that need.

So, what about y’all? Comment down there with your favorite songs!

Come Together, Right Now, Over Me

One of the reasons I chose to go to a school in a big city was because there’s always SOMETHING happening.  Whether it be a concert, some famous speaker, or just an event at a museum, I needed to have more than just a dorm to look forward to on the weekends.

Imagine my surprise when I found out that everyone’s favorite psycho radical church, Westboro Baptist, is coming to the part of the campus I live on next Friday.  If they were protesting on the main campus, it would make sense.  But my little side campus? Okay then…

I don’t know about you all, but I am a huge supporter of LGBTQA rights.  So, when I found out that Westboro was protesting after my last class for the day ended, I knew I wanted to go and counter-protest. I’m not one of the gung-ho, “my way is right so you better agree with it or else,” supporters, but I truly believe that everyone has a right to get married, regardless of who it’s to.  So less than 12 hours after I first heard of the protest, I bought a shirt that says “Straight but not Narrow” and joined a Facebook event for a peaceful counter-protest of students.

You know what the coolest part is, though? Just how many people are rallying behind the counter-protest.  At the moment, over 160 people have RSVPd to the event in less than 24 hours, and I’m guessing that the final turn-out is going to be much larger.  I’m sure people will have their own picket signs, and will show as much, if not more, enthusiasm than the Westboro people.  Words cannot explain how proud and happy I am to be going to a school where we can turn an undesirable event into one that shows our diversity and support.  If this is what can be done my freshman year, I can’t wait to see what difference I can make in the next 4 years 🙂

I take that back

You know how I said I didn’t do anything stupid yet?
Well I locked myself out of my room yesterday.