I’ve always been a fan of stuff. Elementary school saw me with my first celebrity crush (Zac Efron), while middle school was filled with everything Jonas Brothers (who were my first and so far only concert (don’t judge)). High school began with a very short love of Twilight (the books were kinda good, but the movies? not so much), and then, in my senior year, I found Doctor Who, Sherlock, and The Avengers.
However, in all of my love of things fan-ish, I haven’t had much experience with one thing:
Up until now, I have sent 1 piece of fan mail in my life. I was 13, and it was to the Jonas Brothers. I heard nothing back (no shocker there). Now, even though I’m older and (supposedly) more mature, I’m getting ready to send out a very large amount of fan mail.
Well, it’s not really fan mail. It’s actually for a project I have in my writing class. My class centers around media fandoms, and, by the end of the semester, I have to write a 15+ page paper on some form of fandom. I thought it would be fun to look at the history of the Sherlock Holmes fandom, starting with the original books and short stories and ending with the modern movies and TV shows. One day, I thought, “You know what would be cool? If I could get an interesting quote by Benedict Cumberbatch (who plays Holmes on the BBC show) about his experiences with the fandom! Wait-why stop with Ben? I wonder what the other people involved with the show think about the fans!” One thing led to another, and now I’m writing and mailing out a bunch of surveys for people involved with not only the BBC show, but the CBS show Elementary and the Sherlock Holmes movies with Robert Downey Jr. and Jude Law.
The phrase “I hope I hear back from them” is an understatement of what I’m feeling right now, and I haven’t even printed out the letters and surveys yet! I really, really, REALLY want this to work. And it’s not even because I’m one of those obsessed fans who wants to parade around the world screaming “I JUST GOT A SIGNATURE FROM A FAMOUS PERSON LOOK AT ME I’M AMAZEBALLS!!!” before fainting. I honestly think the people I’m contacting could provide some fascinating insight into the modern fandom. Plus, how many people can say, “Benedict Cumberbatch and/or Martin Freeman helped me with a project while I was a freshman in college”? Not many, I can tell you that much.
Fingers, toes, arms, and, well, anything that is crossable is crossed right now that this works and I get at least one survey back.
Ok. I’m tired of seeing the stories about how certain celebrities are becoming horrible role models. I know they will never see this, but hey. I need to vent.
Dear Famous People,
You don’t know me. I don’t know you. But I see your names all the time when I log onto the internet, so I feel like I know a little bit about your life. And I feel like I should share with you a little bit of advice from my short time here on Earth. Will you listen to it? There is a 99.9999999% chance you won’t. I still feel like I need to share it, though.
There’s nothing special about me. I’m just an average college student. Like most people, there was a time in my life where I did look up to a lot of you and dreamed about being a famous actress, or a pop singer, or just famous in general. I wanted the life you all had. But, as I got older, I realized just what lied behind the glitz and the glamour. I saw some people who were genuinely good people, who used their fame to set a positive example for the world and inspired generations to be the best they could be.
And then there’s some of you. I’m not going to point fingers, but I’m going to be honest. You drink, you smoke, you make high-risk behavior seem safe. I can’t begin to understand WHY you do the things you do, and, to be honest, I don’t think I want to. What I would like to know, though, is if you think about how this will all play out. Do you seriously think that you can keep drinking and doing drugs without there being any effects down the road? That you can keep acting this wild and rebellious and not risk driving away the people who love you?
I know this may seem weird coming from a nobody, but let me explain my story. I’m a college student with big dreams. I want to go to medical school and be a doctor, and I’m not going to let anything get in my way. Which means that I have to always think about the future. I haven’t drank or done drugs, because I fear either I will get arrested or the results will end up on the internet for all to see. I may not be famous, but way too many people have had their dreams crushed because of one picture like that. I put my studies first so I can have the strongest chance possible of getting into a good medical school. I push myself so I can look back and be amazed at what I can do, and then know that I can push farther and do greater things. I focus on what is important in my life. And I know that, while it may seem hard now, I will be able to look back and say that I made myself proud.
I’m not saying that you have to drop everything you think is good about your life, and go become a nun or something. Unless you really want to, in which case go right ahead. I’m just asking you to think about what you’re doing, and how it might affect the future. If you’re 18 and famous, and think, “Gee, I want a beer,” consider the fact that we live in a world where almost everybody has a cell phone that can connect to Facebook or Twitter. What may be a harmless drink with friends may wind up being a tabloid’s photographic evidence that “Insert Name Here is a Raging Alcoholic!” And, no matter how unfair it may seem, people will remember that picture. They will think of it when they hear your name. Their first impression will be based on that picture and that headline.
We live in an impressionable age. Children imitate what they see on TV as being acceptable. Would you want your children to think it’s ok to provocatively dance in front of thousands of people? Probably not. Would you want them to pretend to be doing drugs or pee in a mop bucket because a certain pop singer they aspire to be like did it? I know I wouldn’t. But there are most likely children attempting to do this right now.
I’m not saying that everyone have to be perfect angels, and go around spreading good will and strewing flowers everywhere. That’s unrealistic. All I’m asking is that you THINK. Think about the person you looked up to when you were little, and if you would like children looking up to you right now. If you think that your actions will be fine, and won’t cause negative repercussions, then go right ahead and do whatever the heck you want to. I’m not going to stop you unless it puts yourself, myself, or anyone else in danger.
You were given a brain for a reason. Use it.
You know how I said I didn’t do anything stupid yet?
Well I locked myself out of my room yesterday.
Well, I’m 2 weeks into college and, so far, I haven’t done anything too horribly stupid. So that’s an accomplishment.
A little fun fact about myself: I tend to think of a lot of things when it’s about 11:30 at night and I’m attempting to fall asleep. Don’t ask me why this happens, but it gets annoying (especially when you have an 8:30 class the next morning). But, last night, I was thinking about fear, and the things I wish I had the courage to do. I came up with 3 really good things I’d like to do, but am to scared to do.
I’m pretty sure that, if everyone made a list like this, skydiving would be one of the most common things on there. I’ve always wondered what it would be like to feel weightless, but I’ve never had an opportunity to learn. It probably doesn’t help that I have a semi-fear of heights….
2. Ask Out The Guy I’m Crushing On
Yeah, yeah yeah… typical teen girl issue, right here! But, for as long as I can remember, I haven’t been able to form a logical conversation when alone with a guy I like, let alone ask him out on a date.
3. Go To A Party Where There Might Be Alcohol
This sounds like such a ridiculous thing to be afraid of, but just hear me out! Ever since I was 4, I’ve wanted to go medical school. In order to get into a really good medical school, you have to be a good kid. Being a good kid means not getting arrested for drugs, alcohol, illegal activity, pure stupidity, etc. Since I’m not 21, I will get arrested if I get caught with alcohol. Which is bad. I know I could go to a party and not drink and be completely sober and have fun. I just have a fear that I would be the one good kid who would get in trouble for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Sorry for basically the vent session. But ’tis life.
Anyone out there have any other interesting fears?
First of all, thank you guys for all ofthe love!!! You can’t begin to imagine how honored I feel whenever I get an email or a notification on my phone that someone is now following me or has favorited one of my few posts. I’m glad that I’m writing something that people enjoy reading!
As promised, here’s a picture of the deer that decided to hang near my dorm window. Yeah, it’s not the best quality. My apologies. He’s standing about 5′ away from my room, and was staring at me as I took out my phone and took a couple pictures. I hope he hangs around and keeps me company a couple more times 🙂
Well, week one of college life is officially over! I love all of my classes so far (yes. even Beginner’s Latin), and I have met so many people who are fun to be around! I haven’t gotten lost (yet), and I’ve even managed to get out and exercise a couple times in addition to my gym class. The only thing that has surprised me yet is the homework (or lack of it for me). But I’m betting that, much to my dismay, the amount will skyrocket in the next couple of weeks.
Today I thought I’d share with you something I have learned over the past couple of weeks: Enjoy the little things.
I know this kinda seems obvious, but it’s still true. Especially when you’re in a new setting, little things that remind you of home can make the day a little bit brighter. For example, back home, whoopie pies are a common staple in most grocery stores (if you don’t know what these are, you must find some and try them!). But, since I’ve gotten to college, I haven’t seen so much as a reference of them. That is, until yesterday. A couple of friends and I went to the free outdoor concert that my school hosts every year, and, after the show, we went to Whole Foods to get some dinner. I was snooping around the cold food case looking for something sweet, and, lo and behold, there in it’s shining glory is a whoopie pie! It didn’t taste as good as the ones back home, but it still made me happy that I can find a little touch of home whenever I need it.
Also, today a deer walked past my dorm room while I was working on flash cards for Latin. As soon as the pictures get on my computer, I’ll upload them. Again, it was just a little thing that made my day a little brighter 🙂